Since I was sixteen years old, I knew I was going to marry Danson Tang. The moment I fell into his arms from our family's backyard tree I knew he was the one for me. I never once looked back and question my decision. I did not ask nor wondered if there was someone else for me. It was always Danson.

If a person was looking at me from the outside, they would say "How pathetic to live one's life grooming to be a man's wife."

And...they would be absolutely right. Since the age of sixteen, I lived my life for Danson Tang. I was his best friend, I was there when he was at his lowest and I was there when he was at his highest.  I thought I was the wind beneath his wings...I wanted to be the wind beneath his wings, his happiness was my happiness.

Throughout high school and college, while my friends was deciding what they wanted to do with their life...I scheduled my time around Danson. What colleges was he applying to? What major? I lived my life through him.

On the day I left my small hometown, my friend, Ella Chen was at the train station with me. I said my goodbyes to my parents at home. I was glad that Ella stayed with me. It was  a little less lonely as I step in the train...I at least had someone to wave goodbye to. I remembered a question Ella asked. She wanted to know if I had cried yet.  I frowned, I did not know what she meant.

Ella sighed and said,

"You didn't cry when Danson that ass married your sister on your wedding day! I wanted to know if you had time to process everything and cried your eyes out alone?"

I shook my head.

 

"You're still holding it in? Ariel...it's time to let go."

 

"I'm fine." I tried to reassured her. Ella held my hands.

 

"No, it's not okay. It's not okay and you need to let go...I'm so worried about you."

 

"I'm fine." I said again.

 

"I am so glad you're moving to Taipei. Do you know how jealous I am? Invite me over once you settle down, please?" Ella smoothly changed the topic and wrapped her arms around me.

 

"I promise."

 

I want to keep my promise to Ella. After a few weeks living in Taipei I realized it was time I get a job. Whether I was ready  or not...it seems it was time I start practicing living my own life.

 

Part of living my own life means I need money...therefore I had no choice but to look for a job.  Job hunting...what scary words! I've worked in department stores when I was in high school and was a regular babysitter in the neighborhood when I was in college. I was sadly inexperienced in the real world competitive market.

 

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Denied, denied, denied...lack of experience, etc., etc., job hunting was a great way to bring down one's self esteem. It's been over three months and I've met with enough job rejections to last me a lifetime. I was at my wit's end and waiting for my last interview of the day. If I fail this interview, it would make it my 254th rejection.

 

I had waited in line for almost two hours inside a very large waiting room. There was one person in front of me and a few more behind me. I was surprised when I first entered the building that this was the place held for a nanny job interview. I had expected it to be in a home setting. The job ad stated, requirement: Nanny position Great Pay! Must be young and energetic!

 

No other details was given, the pay was unbelievably high for a job taking care of children. Armed with rejection experiences, I knew I had nothing to lose and decided to give it a try.

 

After a long wait, it was finally my turn. The secretary opened the door and invited me inside. I think I was expecting to see someone older, perhaps a woman? Instead I found myself face to face with a young man, not much older than I...maybe two or three years older with a baby in his arms.





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